A Maddening Love Affair with a Touch of Humour

Love and Other Spider Webs

How often do you start a book and finish it in one go?

You start curiously, but without much expectation in the early evening. You read the first page, you enjoy it. You read the first chapter, second. Something doesn’t allow you to put the book down. You want to know what happens next, you don’t want the experience to stop. It’s an emotional roller coaster and you love it.

This doesn’t happen too often, right? If you’re anything like me, it hardly ever happens. But when it does, you’re eating up the experience. You are loving it.


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My First English Novel – Available in 2 days!

Love and other spider webs

There exist moments you remember forever. Ones that make the hair on the back of your neck stand. Straight. Even though the years have passed and so many other memories faded, became bleak, vague.

For me it was the moment I have finished writing my first novel. “Love and Other Spider Webs”. April 2009.  It echoed in October of the same year, when the book came out. I feel elated, just writing it here. Now, exactly 5 years later the same book is available in English. I am pretty certain this moment will not fade away either.

This first successful attempt at novel writing – and there were unsuccessful ones – is special to me. In that maddening 6 weeks when I was finishing the first draft, I managed to distil every last drop of passion from my blood and throw it on the pages of the book.

I hoped. I prayed. I fought. And somehow all these emotions found their way into the pages of my book. It’s a history of looking for your own way. It’s a story of being twenty something and being completely lost, even though knowing exactly what you want (somewhere deep down at least).

It is about a love affair too. It unrolls at a break-neck pace. First person perspective, present tense – I wanted people to feel it is happening to them. No other book of mine made so many readers write to me: “I’ve finished it in one night.”

It’s not a perfect novel. Far from it. It’s a book I love. And I hope you may too.

Its beginning is available below. It’s a bit wild. If you don’t shock your reader with the first page, how will you make him read the second?


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London Underground Monday ride

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People's heads. Sweating gently in the tropical climate of the Central Line. What thoughts do they contain, what beliefs, what worries?

Today, like every evening I'm travelling back home, surrounded by strange shapes of bald men's heads. They have something reptilian about them. Bony, stone-like structures, wrapped tightly in skin. Dangerously close, as it's the rush hour. Sweating gently in the tropical climate of the Central Line. What thoughts do they contain, what beliefs, what worries?
And they must contain worries. All the tensed eye-brow lines, the scared eyes, hiding behind the ophtalmological glass. All the broken dreams, bills, responsibilities… mistresses.
Do people with mistresses use the tube? Or do you need a car to pull that off?
My eyes must look blunt, mindless. I cannot take out a book in this crowd, so I kill my precious time, wondering about useless things like that.

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The shortest marriage – 1939

warsaw 1939

It's a short story that I intend to develop into a novel by the end of this year. Reading my grandfathers papers from the war, inspired me to describe such a crazy occurance. Enjoy! 
(it's dark, but I think it's very funny)

My grandmother was married for exactly seventy three seconds. In a moment of weakness she gave herself to a director of the theatre, where she was starting her acting career. Immediately after, my dad started sprouting in her belly. She fell into despair, so did the family.

'What have I done?'

'She's so young! He's so old…'


Forced by her parents she finally agreed to marry Franciszek Randke. The wedding was planned for the 18th of September. Luck would have it that it was the year when Germans came uninvited. Nevertheless they stuck with the plan, even when USSR invaded on the eve of the date.

'Your bump is not getting any smaller, daughtie. You're going to the altar, if I have to take you there on a tip of a bayonet!,' her mother, my grand-grandma was effusing, slapping her foot nervously on the floor. 'Daughtie, darling, especially now, during war, you'll need a husband. And a one with a German surname is a treasure these days!'

'If grandpa was alive… Marrying a German!'

'But he's not!,' exploded her mom. 'And if you moon your butt to a German, you marry the German!'


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Golden Rule – Law of Success – Napoleon Hill – Lesson 16

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This lesson is the Guiding Star that will enable you to use profitably and constructively the knowledge assembled in the preceding lessons.” Napoleon Hill


That's it. We've come to an end of our two-months-travel. The 'Law of Success' series has run it's course. Well, almost. The last lesson is still waiting for you.


For more than four thousand years men have been preaching the Golden Rule as a suitable rule of conduct among men, but unfortunately the world bas

accepted the letter while totally missing the spirit of this Universal Injunction. We have accepted the Golden Rule philosophy merely as a sound rule of ethical conduct but we have failed to understand the law upon which it is based.


The Golden Rule means, substantially, to do unto others as you would wish them to do unto you if your positions were reversed.” Napoleon Hill


The Golden Rule, here described by Napoleon Hill, stands in the centre of any major religion or philosophy. It's the Kant's universal law, it's the buddhist or hinduist karma, it's what Jesus has preached.


Whatever you do, it'll come back to you. You reap, what you sow.


It's really that simple.


There is an eternal law through the operation of which we reap that which we sow. When you select the rule of conduct by which you guide yourself in your transactions with others, you will be fair and just, very likely, if you know that you are setting into motion, by that selection, a power that will run its course for weal or woe in the lives of others, returning, finally, to help or to hinder you, according to its nature. (…)

Difficulties are never settled while passion rages. They are never settled by conflict. One party may be subdued by power; but the sense of wrong will remain; the fire of passion will slumber ready to break out again on the first occasion.” Napoleon Hill


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Tolerance – Law of Success – Napoleon Hill – Lesson 15


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First: Intolerance is a form of ignorance which must be mastered before any form of enduring success may be attained. It is the chief cause of all wars. It makes enemies in business and in the professions. It disintegrates the organized forces of society in a thousand forms, and stands, like a mighty giant, as a barrier to the abolition of war. It dethrones reason and substitutes mob psychology in its place.

Second: Intolerance is the chief disintegrating force in the organized religions of the world, where it plays havoc with the greatest power for good there is on this earth; by breaking up that power into small sects and denominations which spend as much effort opposing each other as they do in destroying the evils of the world.” Napoleon Hill


The world is tough enough as it is, we really don't need to add tensions, turn friends into enemies and ignore opportunities, just because we think someone's genes or upbringing (stuff, he/she had nothing to do with!) are worse than ours. Even the best personality will fail us, if we're full of prejudice.


Life is not easy. It's hard to stay positive sometimes. Now… is it really necessary to put other people down, based on some artificial ideas? I don't think so, and surely I don't recommend it.


Maybe it's obvious for you, but I recommend you read it, just to make sure, that the intolerance virus didn't get into some areas of your life (it doesn't have to be racism, or religious intolerance, you know… – thinking people from different university than yours are dumb or snobs, doesn't help you either). We need to accept all the cooperation we can get!


That you may learn how and where you acquired your philosophy of life, in general;

That you may trace your prejudices and your biases to their original source;

That you may discover, as I discovered, how largely you are the result of the training you received before you reached the age of fifteen years.” Napoleon Hill


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Failure – Law of Success – Napoleon Hill – Lesson 14


In the outset, let us distinguish between “failure” and “temporary defeat.” Let us see if that which is so often looked upon as “failure” is not, in reality, but “temporary defeat.” Moreover, let us see if this temporary defeat is not usually a blessing in disguise, for the reason that it brings us up with a jerk and redirects our energies along different and more desirable lines. (…)

In Lesson Nine of this course, we learned that strength grows out of resistance; and we shall learn, in this lesson, that sound character is usually the handiwork of reverses, and set-backs, and temporary defeat, which the uninformed part of the world calls “failure.”” Napoleon Hill


We don't like to lose. We really don't. We fear looking stupid, wasting our time, we're afraid of a drop in self-confidence. It's only natural.


Yet, there's no other way to learn new things, to accomplish what is truly astonishing.


It seems that the more times you'll allow yourself to fail, the greater your success will be in the end.


Neither temporary defeat nor adversity amounts to failure in the mind of the person who looks upon it as a teacher that will teach some needed lesson. As a matter of fact, there is a great and lasting lesson in every reverse, and in every defeat; and, usually, it is a lesson that could he learned in no other way than through defeat.


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Minimal Public Damage – Short Story by Maciej Rajk


Dear Readers of mine!

I needed to take a little break from the 'Law of Success' series. So… I translated a recent short story of mine. It was quite challenging, as the characters speak a very peculiar kind of slang, but I hope I've managed to pass that rural-religious-tough-zealous type of a speech that these people use. It's quite a funny little tale, and what's more interesting it's actually a true story. I think it says more about the 'Polish character' than any other lengthy characteristics might.

Enjoy & let me know if you liked it!


- Let a lightining struck, God punish and blood drown that earth forsaken bastard!

- Don't get worked up, mother….

- Let his eybrows burn with our lights, let his kids get burned and blistered!

- Mother, stop! I won't drive you to ER again!

- If only Stasio lived… Mary, mother of God!

- If dad was still alive, nobody would steal lights from his grave. As he wouldn't have one… – suggested Janek.

- How do you know they're getting stolen at all? – Jadzia, Janek's sister, asked.

- Daughter, please, have mercy. One time it can be wind, twice I can believe, but FOUR times! It must be some sinner with sticky paws!

- Mother, relax, for Christ sake! If mom gets a heart attack again, I'll beat mom until…

- You'll beat your own mother?! – mother Renia exclaimed, shocked.

- I don't want to, it's for mother's own good…

- Calm yourselves down! – shouted Jadzia.

- Right, right – agreed mrs. Renia.

She sighed, as she was washing the grave stone with a rug. She scratched a line of bird shit, dried between Lucjan's date of birth and death. 1947-2003.


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Co-operation – Law of Success – Napoleon Hill – Lesson 13


CO-OPERATION is the beginning of all organized effort.


There are two forms of Co-operation to which your attention will be directed in this lesson; namely:

First, the Co-operation between people who group themselves together or form alliances for the purpose of attaining a given end, under the principles known as the Law of the Master Mind.

Second, the Co-operation between the conscious and the subconscious minds, which forms a reasonable hypothesis of man's ability to contact, communicate with and draw upon infinite intelligence.” Napoleon Hill


As it typically is with mr. Hill's lessons, this one too includes much more than the title would suggest. It covers the subject of cooperation between individuals, supporting the lessons on Master Mind and Leadership, but also touches the concept of cooperation between our conscious and subconscious mind, praise of positive thinking and… health advice. A truly eclectic combination.


But what else can one expect from Napoleon Hill?


Let's begin by looking on the mental aspect of inner co-operation.


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Concentration – Law of Success – Napoleon Hill – Lesson 12

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"Concentration is the act of focusing the mind upon a given desire until ways and means for its realization have been worked out and successfully put into operation.


Two important laws enter into the act of concentrating the mind on a given desire. One is the law of Auto-suggestion and the other is the law of habit.


Let me tell you, the course in Success is getting a little intense. Mr. Hill wraps everything up in this lesson and shoves the magic pill right down your throat. It's a very pleasurable ride, though!


Concentration goes hand in hand with Definite Chief Aim and Self-Control. It allows us to cut through any obstacles, as if with a use of a razor. It's the power of focus – so important and so abandoned in today's world of multi-tasking and ADHD.


We focus on everything at the same time – maybe even reading this, you listen to music, you have Facebook or e-mail open in another window – instead of forcing our way through things, one at the time.


Let's see what Concentration is all about.


Auto-suggestion is the tool with which we dig a mental path; Concentration is the hand that holds that tool; and Habit is the map or blueprint which the mental path follows. An idea or desire, to be transformed into terms of action or physical reality, must be held in the conscious mind faithfully and persistently until habit begins to give it permanent form.” Napoleon Hill


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